I am never happier and more content than when I am waking up around lunchtime each day. I love that time period. I fucking hate mornings. Midday to late night are my preferred times. I think it's mostly because I know that if I have woke up around 12, then I have certainly gotten enough sleep.
I've struggled with mental illness all my life and sleep has been a big part of my struggles. I can recall once when I worked over sixty hours on only 8 hours of sleep total. That was for one week. The next week was a little better but not much. eventually I just tried to accept that I would have to just live that way. I wasn't partying either, I just could not get my body to go to sleep. My body and mind want me dead I think. They want to feed the good, sane part of me to the angry psychotic beast that lurks beneath the surface. The one that makes me tell inappropriate jokes at work all the time. Actually, I'm not sure what category that part of me falls into. But I'm keeping him around anyway.
I get my sleep nowadays because of the pills I take. So if you're having a hard time then go see the doc and get some pills. Don't be an idiot like me and try to tough it out. It will not work. Let's just be okay with a cabinet full of pills instead of an asylum full of crazies.
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